Grief

Quiet

Muted noise

My ears just cannot hear

Unrelenting, never ending

Silence

My doctor explained that cochlear implant surgery would render my profoundly deaf ear completely and irreversibly deaf. I didn't expect it to be so extreme. The difference between profoundly deaf and totally deaf is overwhelming.

There is too much time for thinking during this recovery. Idle mind and idle hands... I find myself grieving once again.